In the past couple of weeks, I've been reflecting on the past six months and mapping out the rest of my year. So far, I have had many ups and downs but it's nothing I know I can't handle as long as I remain positive and focused. There's been major and minor lessons for me to learn this year; some completed and the others are still ongoing. Even though how we learn a lesson can sometimes be difficult, it's important to me that I complete them so I can grow, especially as my path continues to change and my goals evolve.
During the peak of it, I haven't written as much and published anything on here as I have been focused on other things. However, I was reminded by my partner that I mustn't give too much to one thing and lose sight of what I want to achieve. Sometimes you need your loved ones to tap you on the shoulder because life can be stressful and it's easy to "live in our heads" or go into panic mode when unexpected situations arise.
Two of the major lessons I am still learning are balance and patience. For years, I have struggled with both and it has often left me drained emotionally, mentally and physically. However, I am focused on creating balance between my momentary needs and my longterm goals. It's not easy because we all have bills to pay but the source of my joy isn't rooted in the job I do to make ends meet but in the belief that my ultimate goals will not only be my only focus one day but will also be profitable for me too.
In terms of patience, this lesson has repeatedly come into me various forms throughout my life and I have not been receptive. However, it changed for me this year as I was forced to accept and understand that it would also aid in releasing me from certain elements of my anxiety. As mentioned above, this lesson is slowly but surely on its way to being completed and as uncomfortable as this one was hard to tackle, the benefits of it are immediately showing.
I'm incredibly grateful for my growth and I look forward to how my life will look once I complete both of these lessons.